I feel as though this is always the case, but I’ve been absent from blogging for a while as I simply didn’t feel inspired. I don’t want to put out content for the sake of it, I’d rather have a break and come back to it when I have something to say. Well, I have something to say now.
Youth is wasted on the young. At this age you’re uncertain of yourself, small problems control your life and choosing your future is daunting. In this society there is such a huge pressure on young people to decide their career when they’re not ready for it. Choosing A-levels or college? Choosing university or work? A very small number of people actually know their mind completely, commit to something and stay at it for the entirety of their life and are content. To those people well done, for the rest of us we make mistakes and change our minds. Try something out, find it doesn’t suit us and then look for new prospects. This is certainly what I’ve experienced in the last few years.
In the past I’ve been to two different colleges, then I tried out university (which was completely the wrong one and the wrong course for me). I made fast choices, listened to bad advice and wasted some time. After this I decided to try working full time instead and put some money in my pocket. Life does love to intervene and throw you curveballs though. Jobs don’t live up to what you originally thought, people disappoint you and the money doesn’t satisfy you anymore. I’ve come to the conclusion that I need a career not a job. Considering we spend nearly all our adult life working it might as well be something you love to do. Life is a compromise between wealth and happiness, if you can land somewhere in the middle then you’re one of the lucky ones.
Our previous mistakes shape who we are now and they help you to determine what you’re actually looking for. Expressing my creative side is what makes me content so that is what I should be pursuing. I’ve always been artistic, my previous studies were always art subjects and that is what I excelled at. Even at a young age I used to run about with a camera in my hand. So a few months ago I made the decision to go back into higher education to study photography. This time round I thought it through properly and chose wisely on where to study. As always happens with me I was cutting it close to wire, the cut off dates where a few weeks away. Being extremely determined I worked hard to make sure I got in my application on time and get a portfolio together in a week for my interview. My efforts paid off and I got an unconditional offer.
It is never too late to go down a different path. Photography makes sense for me as career and higher education was the best way to get started. Currently I’m very inspired by black and white photography, artists such as Edward Weston, Helmut Newton and Mapplethorpe. Fine art photography is how I currently see my work but I’m looking forward to trying out other styles and learning more to improve myself. I included some of my portfolio images in this post to document where I am now, so that I can look back in the future and no doubt cringe at my own work. I’m eager to get started in September and see where it all leads. It’s a very refreshing feeling to be so excited about something and my own future.
A life lesson you should take on board right now is to do what you love. What makes you happy?